I did not know that my most recent post would be on Mulligan's last night with us. Mulligan died on Friday, 2/6 and we miss him more than I can adequately express with words.
The house is just a little too empty, a little too quiet and my heart aches with longing to pet Mulligan's soft head and see those loving eyes one more time. I find myself unconsciously looking for him throughout the day and fighting tears everytime that I realize I won't find him here.
The kids, of course, are a great source of perspective. They miss Mulligan too and Camille is struggling to understand why she can't see him at will. Kelton's questions about Mulligan dying are deep and we expect he will be challenging our ability to quantify our own beliefs about death for some time to come with his insatiable wondering. In the meantime, the kids have also moved on to believing that we should immediately find a new pet - preferably a guinea pig named Meow. We haven't broken the news that their mother isn't fond of rodents. Yet, we will someday have another dog... not yet, there isn't a single puppy that can fill the Mulligan size hole in our lives right now. However, we are dog loving folks and, when the time is right, we'll look forward to happy dog chaos again.
Until then, I'm waiting for time to take the sting out of the every day moments when I realize that Mulligan is no longer with us. I miss him dearly and wish I could nuzzle his silky head just one more time...
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I want to say something so deep and profound that it will bring a smile to your lips and lift your sorrow and make everything seem okay.
Why am I lacking in such a gift?!
Because I am lacking in wisdom deep and profound, I will just say that I care deeply about you and your family, and I miss Mulligan in my own way, too. (He liked me! It made me so happy when he finally decided he liked me and would run to me.) He was a lucky dog to have you. I am saddened by your loss, and hope for joy for you and your family.
Sending MUCH love down the hill.
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